I've been so good. Honest. I have been thinking good thoughts in spite of others trying to dump on my wonderful world. It's not easy because they are really trying. There are days I wonder why I thought I wanted to be close to family. I know that sounds awful, but when the good Lord gently guided me towards the military He knew what He was doing. Silly of me to think I knew what I was doing. For those of you that don't know I am not in contact with mother - haven't been since May. Her sharp tongue and self-absorbed outlook finally took it's toll on me. I said, "No more". I have felt a great sense of inner peace and satisfaction since I made that decision. Something difficult for a Libra to do, but I made that decision and I am very happy with it. The hurtful things she said to me and about my family were unacceptable. I wouldn't continue to be friends with anyone who spoke those words to me and I'll be damned if I will allow a member of my family to. My mother fell and broke her pelvis on Sunday. For some reason everyone believes I should be rushing to her hospital bed to set up a vigilence. Hmmm... Well, sorry - that's not going to happen. It doesn't change anything. Nothing. Mean? Harsh? Probably. But walk in my shoes and tell me how you'd feel. I made my decision. The only way that will change is if my sister asks me to make a change in order to help her out - not my mother. Don't tell me it's the right thing to do or the Christian thing to do or to be the better person. I've tried all of that for years and I should have done what I finally did years ago. Don't tell me I will regret my decisions later when she's gone. I know what I've decided and I'm not naive.
So in spite of everything and everyone trying to run my life and tell me how mean and horrible I am, I have really accomplished some cool things lately. First off here's a pic of our most recent snow storm from last Thursday. This is looking from our deck out to the front yard. It's practically a whiteout. Beautiful.
This is my newly organized yarn area! It was great going through my stash!
I had a lot of yarn I could roll into balls and do I have a bunch!!! Just look at this collection!
Remember the knitted poncho I bought online? The vintage one? Here it is!! I love it so much I want to wear it every day.
The next Craft Club meeting is at my house and we are welcoming two new members. I don't have my menu locked down completely but I am leaning towards homemade Sloppy Joes/BBQ. It's the 17th of February.
Okay, that's it for now! Hope everyone is doing well!!
I completely understated about your Mother, you have to do what is right for you simply for self preservation. My Dad is a complete handful, he is 89 and I wish I could blame it on that but he has been like this forever. He is in the hospital and I am the only one here, I have to hear his jabs, and loudly talking to me and hanging up on me. Doesn't make me want to spend a whole lot of time with him. My Mom is in the nursing home, yay having a great week here!
ReplyDeleteHang in there,
Meredith