I do believe I have started such an update 3 times this week only to have to abandon it due to work. This morning, however, I am making time because I just feel like I need to get something out there.
I'm not sure if anyone else experiences this, but if you do I would appreciate your thoughts... My work allows us to work from home 2 days a month. As you can imagine choosing those two days can be a challenge. I try very hard to look at my calendar and pick a date that does not take me away from important meetings and training. Even when I don't feel like dragging my rear into work and want to take a work from home day on the spur of the moment, I do not. I force myself to get in to the office because I think my coworkers are depending on me to be "present". So when I come to work only to find 1) my schedule has freed up and 2) my coworkers are not here, I get a little miffed. And I know I shouldn't. People are people and they are looking out for themselves. I get that. So why is it I cannot do the same for myself but feel such a strong sense of "duty" by coming to work? Does anyone else feel this? Does anyone else feel like you sacrifice way more than others? Is this just "normal" and everyone feels this way?
I am still working on the two blankets for the very nice woman in TX. In between I make a dishcloth or two. Here is one I finished up last night. Not sure why I chose black yarn, but it sure makes the other two colors stand up.
I never tire of this pattern. It seems to be part of me now.
I spent the night in town Tuesday night, so my kitty seemed to relieved and happy to have me home. Here she is looking quite exhausted. Ah, the life of a cat...
I don't know what to say about the Boston attack, so I will just say my heart goes out to the city and to those people who were injured and the families of the ones that were killed. The support the rest of the nation is showing is tremendous to me and gives me chills. Why can't we live like that every day?
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Driving in to work this morning was refreshing. I didn't leave at my normal "0 dark thirty" so I actually had some daylight. It started to sprinkle on my hour commute about 15 minutes and then a good downpour. The best part was the smell of the earth coming through my car vent. The freshly plowed fields and the rain made for a great combination! I should have been a farmer. Something about the even rows makes this Libra heart faint with delight.
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
Lately my DH has been making me crazy with his negativity. He's normally a negative person, although he will tell you he's a realist. He believes in hoping for the best but preparing for the worst. I beg to differ. When I am at my wits end with him I tend to shut down and simply not engage in his negative banter. That, of course, makes him question me which inevitably leads to a "discussion" about his negativity, er...realistic point of view. No kidding; he's the type of person that if a dump truck filled with money pulled into our driveway and dumped the entire load on our driveway he would complain because it wasn't stacked and counted. My outlook is completely different which often times leaves us at a disagreement. Me, being the Libra, will often "give in" and not continue the discussion to the point of nauseum. He's also notorious for beating a dead horse. I mean, really beating it. I didn't want this to turn into a DH bashing. Honestly. Just at times his overbearing and seemingly endless rants do get to me. I just want to scream at him to STFU. Is it any wonder I crave "me" time?